Jealousy

Spiritual jealousy is the most clever hidden, still the same simple mechanism running: "me having/knowing and not wanting others have/know the same", "others having and me not". This simply points to belief in separation -me being a separate being who can have, know. We recite oneness affirmations, and even truly believe we are awake. But we are awake to the fact that there is no separation in the reality...the fact is an information, a belief in the mind, a habit we learnt well from reading, attending, listening, pondering...It's not integrated into the Being, not lived yet. The first step is just to be honest with yourself and notice what is reality is. Not as we think it is, but what is: jealousy, then jealousy... feeling separate, then feeling separate...feeling pour me, then feeling pour me...feeling stingy, then feeling stingy... just seeing what is has more potency to open the door, because its a right key, then bunch of fake keys about "my awakening is better then your awakening"... "I am special"..." I want to be one awakened"..."I want to be special"..."there is nobody here, but there are others over there", but "I am surely special"...